Week 7, Spring Break, and onto week 8

There is a lot to catch up on! Although technically I am just a module and 1/2 behind on journal entries, over 2 weeks has gone by because of spring break.

Let's see... week 7. It was spent re-working my "educate" program grow kit. I spent a day pushing things around and hating it more and more. So I put the old stuff aside and started over. I realized that I completely forgot to research kids and look at this through their eyes. I kept designing with the parents and general "City Farm" in mind, which is pretty bad on my part. I was burnt out, not thinking creatively and not in the mood to do this school thing at all anymore. Starting over and knowing I had a break coming up (from work and school) was what got me through week 7. I researched and sketched more ideas and found myself in a good spot with "educate". I updated my box die to include a handle and a different shape. It is better for kids to carry and easier for me to design. I also updated the "Little Farmer's" T-shirt and graduate certificate to be a bit more personal and fun.

Then came "spring break". I went to Florida to be part of a wedding for 4 days. It was great to spend time in the sun, in flip flops, hanging with old friends and making some new one's. I felt my shoulders drop down where they belong, my stomach stopped hurting and my mind was free. It was awesome. When I got back I worked pretty casually on my school work and drilling away with stuff at work that piled up. I just sort of generated ideas and worked ahead a bit. I felt creative and really happy to be working.

Then This Monday hit. I was back to work and starting week 8 when everything hit me and I began to feel a bit depressed. I have a lot of work to do with my thesis to get where I want to be next year and will need to work in between semesters to get there. I am so scared of failing final, so I decided to go full on with my work. But, knowing that has made me feel so isolated. It was so nice to have a little social life in Florida and I really miss my friends and family. I am beginning to wonder if I will have many friends left after school is over and if my husband will resent me for being so distracted and grumpy. I feel as if I am always on edge and I am always tired, even though I am getting enough sleep. I am training for a run so I get a lot of exercise in, which is great for stress, but not all of it. I'm just not sure what else I can do to save my sanity aside from dropping out of school. I just keep hoping this next year will slide by before anyone realizes what a terrible friend I have become.


Looks like week 8 will end up OK. Good thing I worked ahead because I came down with the plague this week. I could not stand up yesterday and the day before I was pretty out of it. If I had not worked ahead I would be pretty far behind right now. I will just do what I can and figure out the effects later, I guess.

Truckin' on....